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Hello darling
It’s been a long fight
I can see your tired eyes
I hope you’ve been doing alright
Why would you come back for me
After doing all this
The stars are blinking out
I hate what i will miss
Sitting back to back in a starlight
Fading gone amiss
Your eyes are blinking slowly
Like you did none of this
I was the periscope
I was the antidote
Looking glass looking glass
You saw the world through me
I saw myself in your
Arms i hate your arms
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the nuclear prayer
05:35
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Staying inside each winter reminded me of you before
Now I can’t leave the icy corridors
And staying awake reminded me of your eyes
Because my brain wonders to horror
Your books couldn’t warn you of this
I’m tempted to blame it all on you
And hopefully the abject terror subsists
Or something, I don’t know how fear works
It’s gotten too cold in the north
Colder still in the far south
You always turn away beside the campfire
Pretending to warm each side of your face
Oh but I could never hate you, huh
I just don’t like what your face implies
Oh but I could never love you, huh
I just adore what your eyes deny
Please release us, old gods
Please release us, new gods
We cry on opposite sides
Of a nuclear prayer
And darling, don’t you know,
The apocalypse is so familiar
I dig my hand into the melting concrete
And it freezes solid cold
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for mikhail bakhtin
04:52
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The feeling of a smile fading from your face
Means the performance is just over
And you have found a kind of solace
In mediocrity’s tender arms
Your smile is so very nice
And won’t it hold me tonight (fading away)
You know the words are dangerous darling
You know we fuck in all the wrong places
My piano rings with promise and belief
Ideologies spin in time and
Rhyme after rhyme makes the woods shake its leaves
In the cesspit that we call home
Your smile is so very nice
And won’t it hold me tonight (fading away)
Get me out of what you call home
Spread me far and wide
A secret alone
But secrets are bound
Or they don’t exist
Like the rest of us you’ll drag yourself along the ground
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ghosts in particular
05:53
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In a victimless past
Sound happens in your own head
I have no particular place to go to
And i am all out of things to say
Help me dig my way out
As the dirt falls on my face
And i spit brown and blood
My hands are overtaken with fur and claws
Time seems to slow to a halt
I scream like one in pain and yet i am not
Just a passerby i slide beyond thought
Face is snoutlike and thumbs are tied
Feet crack in sync and i smile
You watch my tongue and teeth unfurl
And survey what is left as i cry out
My chest is bare and there’s barely skin left
Just the fuzz and everything jutting out
Bones like iron, a stance like death
Primed at any second, enhanced by each breath
And the human is a ghost in particular
For she is only a memory at last
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grow up
08:12
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The number of hours we have together is actually not so large
Please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving
Please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it
Grow up
Please never grow up and old
Paradise in vitro corridor
Alienate me and adore
Adore me
I was alive for a split second
I might survive if you don’t shut up
She walks down the hallway boots on wood
The echoing rattles my brain and i shouldn’t
I’ve been all alone in the bunk bed that you left
So don’t you lecture me about what little time we’ve spent
I’ve been all alone in a bunk bed that was empty of a body
I recognised
Finish your sentences darling
i miss the words not stopping in your throat
And i know it’s silly to cling onto what has not happened
So leave what was me alone
All too soon
In this room
Quarter inch too long
Never knew
Never knew
Beyondness, relation
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Soft break in morning
Daylight morphs and fades
I demand something other than the desperation
God i can still feel the path of your hand
Down my back tracing my spine
Tender eyes and yawning
Split apart my soul
It is only so painful in the letting go
Your wounds are all too caustic
From my nearly claws
I don't remember how they got here
Please let your ghost hang around
In the afternoon
I’ll be unmoored nicely
You can find me there
Broken up swirling patterns on the drywall
You took a sip from my drink in the drifting light
I am tied surely to your lips
I reply coldly when morning hits
But when you're tied to my face
And the hustle has cleared
You arrive at something beautiful
My dear
My dear
My idea was to clean your soul in vitro corridor
My dear
My deer antlers eviscerate your skin
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Most everyone wants someone that’ll make them laugh
But you i just want you to make me sad
This conversation in the aftermath
I saw you in the wrong light
Oh please believe me when i say
I hate this scene i hate this place
Repeal the fantasy of music with grace
Hello darling
It’s not been that long this time
I’m conscious of your smile and your hair and the way the things you say just make me twist
In and out of the crowd as it moves and pulsates like
Duh duh duh duh duh duh
Hit me with your best shot
As i listen to the music cut through my heart
You could never do that to me
Please do that to me
You’re never working out that
We live together sometimes you want it to be true
You wanted the truth
But you shut off your ears shut out the proof
Oh please believe me when i say
I love this scene i love your face
You hurt me in a thousand lives
No disgrace
Help me
Hurt me
Most everyone wants someone that’ll make them laugh
But you i just want you to make me sad
Took you outside kissed you three times
You smiled through every single one
And meant none of it
Mean none of it
Ooh help me
Drag me to the bottom of the ocean
Loud loutish lover
I am so sorry for everything i've done
Ooh hurt me
I’ve ruined you so many times
this basement’s way too hot but that’s okay
we are laughing we are crying we are everything at once
and i see us from above
everyone becomes each other as we sing like duh duh duh duh duh
is it okay to dance while the world burns? is it okay if i’m not sad?
just shut up and listen to the band
and so we fall into ourselves
it seems only right that it should end this way
and so we fall into ourselves
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pyrrharctia isabella
06:40
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The moth beside our bed
Alone, waiting, set alight
Empty the cosmos
Parting hands and setting flight
This is me
Starlight needed to breathe
Your dark shadow
A fallacy, a fallacy
You shadowed me
A fallacy, fall asleep
Together in roman fashion
All the cosmos leads to us
You know me so well
It’s a blessing, it’s a curse
You know me so well
You’re a blessing dispersed
Purest artica
Reading your words
Makes me shake
So I spiral as you
Float around my room
You move in ways I can’t predict
Or don’t want to
You know me so well
It’s a blessing, it’s a curse
You know me so well
You’re a blessing dispersed
You’re the deity in my head
Moving away from muselessness
A fallacy, helping me
Beat the damaged uselessness
And the linguists don’t agree
The linguists don’t agree
The linguists spoke their rules
And love demands itself free
I can’t believe you put up with me
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Her hair was bright blonde and cut short
While mine I barely saw
framing my face like the maroon curtains
that met with a smile the applause
and the crowd was cleaved in two
and we danced in the half light of an empty room
and the organ player played a simple tune
it made me cry until I looked at you
it's a garden now
it's always been
watch the flowers grow
you've always been
walking in circles later
I am struck repeatedly
by how stupid you looked
staring in our half light defeatedly
you were born last week
and you died again
it's a garden now
it's always been
watch our flowers grow
you've always been
aren't the stars beautiful every night
this is as good as it gets
I am struck repeatedly
that this is as good as it gets
aren't the stars beautiful tonight
maybe this is as good as it gets
maybe this is as good as it gets
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I am going to tell a story
And it is only one
From that desperate youth
And my desperate sun
Break away
Sever ties
Get out of my fucking mind
I know this one all too well
They said the drug would arrive on Tuesday. Your head had dropped when the phone call came, like it was a doctor bearing news you didn’t expect. My dad had said we were, “two people making a terrible decision because you’re both sad.” He divorced my mum when I was 13. It happens, but you’re never supposed to own up to that.
They said it would be gentle, and you’d forget me by Thursday. There are now two notes in my diary, on my phone. I dropped it the other day on the pavement and now it almost doesn’t work. Sometimes, when I go to click the calendar app, the phone crashes. Last time it happened I threw it to the side and went to my room, where you were on your own phone, uncracked.
They said your memories of me would be surgically excised, little brain knives scratching away at the joining points of me and everyone else in your life. I said that didn’t sound very gentle and are you sure this is safe. The doctor replied well miss it’s been clinically trialled in all sorts of ways and there’s no way we could sell you a faulty product. I stared at the floor and you looked at me and thought I couldn’t see you doing that. Then my phone went funny again and hung up for me.
They said, normally we do this procedure on both parties (and I almost said what a formal word choice “parties” was but I got bored of analysing people’s language in like, 2013), so why is it only one of you? and you didn’t even answer. The blame was on my shoulders, in their mind. Last week I had screamed at you for two whole hours about my brain and not ever wanting to think about forgetting you and you looked so sad but nothing in me told me to stop. My past is getting all incidental now, like it’s making up for yours fading.
They said the only risk was the drug reacting negatively with people who are overly lost in their thoughts. I sniggered and said that wouldn’t be much of an issue. You looked dead faced. It’s always been hard to tell when I’m making a joke.
You still have you, you know?
"There aren't any more stars ____ you said so yourself. When we die here, do we even have anywhere to go?" ____ hugs her knees close to her chest and rests her chin there.
I'd like to believe there are stars somewhere.
I'd like to believe there are stars somewhere.
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aa&tyr Glasgow, UK
it began, like most things did back then, with the search engines
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